Orulyon said:
What I never understood (and Im open to explanations!) is why in one chapter long time ago Kaname was talking to "dead" Rido and saying "While Im alive you can never die". or something like that. I still cant get why Rido´s "ghost" haunts Kaname.
One possibility is the answer that Narutowolf77 gave, I think that's definitely part of it, but I also always interpreted Rido as being the one Kaname saw as a representation of his darker side. For example, earlier in this arc Yuuki saw herself as a child and was talking to the "chibi vampire Yuuki" about how she was denying her basic instincts as a vampire. That "vampire Yuuki" appeared in her mind because she was rejecting a part of herself.
There was also Zero seeing "Ichiru," at the cemetary in Chapter 59. He said that he thought he was forgetting what it meant to be human, and "Ichiru" asked him what being human even was when there were humans who also desired the blood of a pureblood just like vampires. I guess at that point we could say that Zero was shutting out or losing grip on his humanity, he felt like he was becoming too much like a vampire.
So with Kaname seeing "Rido" I always interpreted that as being because he was still hesitating on going through with his plan, and Rido represented that older or darker part of Kaname's persona. That's why Rido taunted him about "playing the role of the sweet oniisama," and asking if he'd forgotten his true self, etc. I think the reason Kaname was seeing Rido before was because Kaname himself felt that they were actually very similar - that's why he called Rido a good mirror and said he was someone who embodied his faults well. We have to remember that Rido likely wasn't always insane - otherwise, Haruka and Juuri probably would have never trusted him around their family at all prior to the incident with their firstborn. But he was in love with Juuri and had to watch her be with someone else. Since Yuuki confessed to part of her heart still being attached to Zero, Kaname could probably relate in that regard too.
Narutowolf77 said:
Thank you for clearing up the whole 'brother' thing for me. I wanted to know how accurate the translation was manily because I came across some Zeki fans saying that it meant Yuuki prefers Kaname as her brother, which I still don't really buy because:
You're welcome! ^^
I can't speak for the Zeki fans whose posts you read in particular, but generally speaking I think they probably interpreted Yuuki's line to mean she prefers Kaname as her brother not solely based off that line in her fantasy, but her overall attitude since awakening, and in that regard I actually agree (but I can understand of course if you don't. ^^) I'll explain my perspective but it's okay if you still disagree. :D
In this arc, Yuuki hasn't said she loved Kaname at all, or even liked him, not even when directly asked. She referred to him as Kaname-oniisama even though they were engaged, and while we can say that's because she felt he was her brother, it would make more sense for her to still be used to calling him Kaname-sama because that's what she had referred to him as for ten years of her life when she was human. Since they were engaged, she should have been calling him just "Kaname" after living together for a year, but I would have personally understood simply "Kaname-sama" since it would be hard to change old habits. Referring to him as oniisama though made it seem like that was how she saw him, as her brother. From Yuuki's end there was just a lot of awkwardness in their relationship, she was very passive. Not only that, but she hasn't reflected on her relationship with Kaname much at all. There's no flashbacks to memories that are important to her, like we've seen Zero have with Yuuki and Yuuki have with Zero. There's still no acknowledgement of her feelings for Kaname now, even in her mind. We were never shown the affect Kaname's blood had on Yuuki like we did with Zero. And, to top it all off, she wasn't being sated by Kaname but after drinking from Zero she suddenly understands what being sated is like.
So for me, all of that plus Yuuki's ideal world having Kaname as her brother is what makes me feel that's how she sees him. She's supposed to be his fiancee but she feels no guilt whatsoever for her romantic advances toward another guy o_O I mean, biting Zero, offering her blood to him on the train in 87 just like how Ruka offered her blood to Kaname before, licking her blood off Zero's face, leaning up to kiss him and then showing no remorse for it whatsoever when she is LITERALLY caught in the act? Personally I think it would be better for her character if that was because her feelings for Kaname weren't romantic, otherwise she looks really bad. She's fantasizing about a world where she could have been with Zero, but even on her own we've never seen her fantasize about a world where Kaname wouldn't have found it necessary to do what he's doing and they could have just lived together. I'm willing to take this back if it happens in future chapters or something else happens in the manga to counter my opinion, but for now...
I do think that Kaname probably believed this himself and that's why he finally quit hesitating and left when he did. He gave her a chance to say that she loved him or that his past didn't matter, but the only answer she could give him was to start over instead, rendering any progress we were supposed to believe they'd gone through moot. I personally don't feel Yuuki treated him very well when they were living together, even though she wasn't trying to be hurtful. Even if he was saying it jokingly, I think Kaname nailed it on the head when he agreed with Yuuki that she was a horrible fiancee lol.