- #90
Chapter 87 - Since this chapter came out I've always thought of it as the moment when Yuuki finally made up her mind about who she loves more.
She clearly states she does love Zero:
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There's more to it then that as the chapter ends with a 'But I ...':
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This, as of now, has been left up to the reader's interpretation a few examples of what it could be:
"But I need to stop Kaname."
"But I can't be with him because I belong to Kaname."
"But I can't be with him because I'm a vampire."
"But I love Kaname more."
The one that best fits into my theory is "But I love Kaname more." having this be the end of the statement would help to explain Yuuki's actions in chapter 88 when she speculates on whether things would have been different had her and Zero been humans and Kaname her brother. If she loves Kaname more this would make sense because she's wondering if she would have chosen Zero and if they could have been together had circumstances been different, would she have even come to like him. But it's speculation, not reality, meaning because she's asking 'what if' it isn't the way things really are. She then decides to erase Zero's memories and announces that the only way to stop Kaname is to make him human.... wait, what? A few chapters ago she was saying she was going to kill him, why would she suddenly change her mind and decide to make him human? It's not like it would be any easier than killing him as she would still have to catch him. However it would make sense if she has decided she can't bring herself to kill him because she loves him. She has already tried twice and failed plus if she really wanted to kill him you would think she would be carrying the artemis and would have brought it out immediately when she saw him at the party wouldn't you? But she didn't, she reached for him instead:
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Then comes chapter 89 when she reunites with Kaname again and finally learns why he has been doing everything. I know some people think she was upset because of what happened with Zero and that's originally what I thought too, and I still think it's part of it, but she doesn't mention Zero in her internal dialogue whenever she gets clingy and starts to cry she's thinking about how she plans to turn Kaname human:
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Of course Kaname doesn't know what she's thinking, nowhere in the manga has it been stated that he can read minds. He most likely assumes Yuuki loves Zero more, this is supported by the fact that he knew before that she craved Zero's blood and because he said that she didn't laugh from the heart:
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Meaning his view is biased and he even says he should have entrusted her to Zero sooner as though Yuuki would have been happier this way:
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And then it's Kaname, not Yuuki, who says she doesn't know where her heart belongs:
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But as stated before Kaname can't read minds and while he can make guesses those guesses will be biased based off of what he thinks he knows.
This kind of puts Yuuki in a better light because it means she isn't being flippity-floppity but rather she's made up her mind and it's just Kaname assuming that she hasn't, it would also mean that she did choose him as the one she wants before having sex with him.
Anyways that's all I have, just wanted to share this since so many people are hating on Yuuki right now even though we don't know all the details (too many biased Zero fangirls -.-) and I don't think it's fair to her as a character because she's a bright, beautiful, strong young woman. Even if this theory is wrong I still don't think it's fair to hate on her, we all make mistakes, Yuuki would be a complete mary sue if she never made any. :)