Skimmed ahead again and it looks like someone stimulated the MC enough to make her go crazy (some kind of poison was involved, something about another betrayal from someone she trusted, and her childhood suffering was because of her mother whom is still alive), she finally exposes the betrayal the ex-lover and how the ML had previously killed her. How can she love someone who killed her? But she of course, could not bear to hurt him? She wanted to die. After running away, ML thinks of her words, did he really kill her in their past life? When he finally found her, with red eyes, he went down on both knees and asks her, doesn't she hate him? The person who killed her is here! He hated his incompetence and how he could not relieve his loved one's pain. He's really too weak and incompetent! He hated the restrictions of the world, he hated everyone who stopped them! As he was on the ground, he discarded all of his dignity because he wanted to change her back, he wanted to face her and bear everything together! MC said that he killed her in their past life... He was wrong, he admits it! He knelt down and begs her to forgive him, take all of her unhappiness and take revenge on him, as long as she doesn't hurt herself, she can do anything!
Seeing that there was no change to MC, he continues, if she's angry, she can kill him! It's easy to kill him! Will she turn around? Doesn't she want to see how he's asking for forgiveness? ML was full of hope that she'd turn around, as long as she can understand him, she'll certainly have the opportunity to seek reason. He believes in her! So, he deliberately continued to tempt her, he tells her that he's behind her, the bastard who killed her, he's here. Doesn't she want to take revenge on him? As he eagerly spoke, just as when he thought MC was already indifferent to his words, she gradually turned around. But at that moment, ML had to clench his teeth so he didn't cry out. He started at MC from top to bottom. His fingers were deep into his palms, he used his best reasoning to control himself, so that he didn't embrace the woman in front of him. Her little face was covered in blood, and her chest had a big hole! Not only her chest, but also her waist, and thighs, her bloody body was covered in self-mutilation! In order to maintain her sanity, she didn't rush down to kill! She only used pain to stimulate herself. But she seemed to feel painless at the moment, because even bones were visible from those wounds! If this was an ordinary person, I'm afraid they would of been dead soon.
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Not long after, MC cut ML's leg veins (so he can't follow after) and jumps off a cliff (so her unstable self wouldn't kill ML), but then her ex-lover also jumps down with her and held onto her. He apologizes for not being able to be her brother, but if he's able to protect her once, he'll be happy. He hopes that this world is a dream, so that when they wake up, she'll be able to return as his wife... After saying this, he used his body to protect her when they fell into the water, MC then heard his spine fracture on impact, so she concluded that he must of died. (ML later finds ex-lovers body wash ashore. After learning of how he died, ML was able to determined that ex-lover was actually able to save MC's life).
After seeing MC fall off, ML's hair turned completely white. He was wrong. The world was as distorted and dark as he imagined. It took everything he wanted most. He hates the world and hates everyone! If they're all dead, then it's fine. No one will rob him of MC... Everyone in the area felt that he had turned into the devil (he suddenly gained enormous strength). He even felt the wounds on his body being repaired. He tells MC to wait for him, he'll destroy this disgusting world and will come accompany her. It won't be long, she must wait for him...
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Ex-lover finds himself in his past life younger body, but apparently the 7th princess (MC) doesn't seem to exist. He also became engaged to a merchants (?) daughter and the wedding was the next day after. After having his servant send a letter to the daughter saying he can't marry her, she shows up, tells him off, then storms off. But to his surprise, she looked just like MC!
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After being saved, it turns out MC gets hit with our good ol friend, amnesia.
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Won't be reading anymore of the raws, will be waiting for other people to give spoilers or for more translated chapters.