I Won’t Accept Any of Your Regrets

“I can’t promise you love, and I’ll have no other woman but you,” he said.

I thought it would be okay. Even if he didn’t love me, I thought my love would make our marriage happy. But I'm very naive to think he will love me even for once.

Because Lou Jiang, Juan Yihe's first love, returned with a kid.

“Lou Jiang is trying to make her child the heir of the Juan family,” he told me.

“Let’s get a divorce,” I said.

I decided to leave or even abandon him.

***

“What?” he said.

Yihe’s eyes shook violently as if he didn’t understand my words. His agitation, seen for the first time for some reason, relieved me.

I opened my lips to him again with a soft smile: “I want to leave you. So Yihe, let’s stop now. I'm tired of waiting for you to love me, even for once or just a little, so let's divorce.”

I thought so, waiting for him to love me even a little after five years of our marriage. Even if he didn't love me, it's okay; I'll endure it. But then I saw him with his first love and even a kid who was exactly the same as him in his childhood. And yeah, at that time, I thought it was time for me to leave him or even leave this country that's put me in pain to start a new life; it was the end of a long, unrequited love.