A Vampire’s Caregiver

Ji An closed her eyes, knowing how futile her effort to run away. She remembered her last conversation with Ha Na in which she kept reminding her to follow her heart and to pursue her own happiness.

Story  
Kinukawa Yuusuke is a gay patissier and part-time piano player who occasionally performs in a small jazz club at night. He notices Fukami Hikaru, a young yakuza member among the regulars, often glancing his way. This leads to an unexpected turn when Yuusuke becomes Hikaru's private piano instructor. On Friday nights, he teaches Hikaru how to play the piano. Gradually, Yuusuke finds himself drawn into Hikaru's dark and dangerous yakuza world. Despite falling in love, Hikaru, due to traumatic experiences in prison, has developed strong homophobic tendencies. Yet, Yuusuke resolves to stay by Hikaru's side, even if it’s just to play piano for him.

Review  
"Negai Kanae Tamae" had lingered on my reading list for quite some time, but I hesitated to dive into it. For one, it’s labeled as drama, and I tend to shy away from manga that might end badly—or worse, not happily. While I don’t mind struggles or challenges for the couple, I dislike it when they don't end up together. Moreover, tragedy and death leave me uneasy. Another factor was the art style, which wasn’t particularly appealing to me. However, I’m thrilled I finally read it, and I encourage anyone else with similar reservations to give it a try.

"Negai KT" serves up one of my favorite character types—the disturbed personality. Yakuza boss Fukami Hikaru is an emotionally cold man with the charm and social grace of a potential mass murderer. He’s cold, blunt, violent, grumpy, and bad-tempered—traits that might have landed him in a mental institution early on. Thankfully, the mangaka lets him act out his inner turmoil freely. Hikaru's time in prison, where he was raped, left him with more than just a typical aversion to gays. His drug use and casual treatment of women reflect a lack of empathy, traits that oddly make him intriguing. His character is deep enough to get lost in, showing strength, vulnerability, fear, and beauty beneath his tattoos. While we occasionally see Hikaru alone, we never truly enter his mind, preserving much of his mystery throughout the story. Yet, there’s a softer side to him; he can be cute, funny, and his rare smiles are contagious. Beneath the troubled exterior lies a version of Hikaru who could transform, capable of either chaos or redemption.

On the other hand, Yuusuke is openly gay and forms the emotional core of the narrative through his perspective. He seems like an average guy—someone you might pass on the street or encounter at a local shop. His kindness, playfulness, and caring nature make him relatable and easy to connect with. As the story progresses, Yuusuke reveals unexpected layers of loyalty and courage, proving he’s far from weak. His growth adds depth to his character, making him a compelling protagonist.

The art isn’t exactly my cup of tea—it’s somewhat mediocre, occasionally stiff or flat, and feels dated. There’s one exception: Fukami. His design is striking, explaining why others are drawn to him despite his harsh demeanor. Beyond this, there’s little remarkable about the artwork, though it’s straightforward and functional. The real draw here is the story and characters. Nishida Higashi consistently delivers engaging yaoi stories with strong male leads, often defying genre stereotypes. Her narratives are rich with themes of love and fate, creating memorable characters that captivate readers. While her artistic skills may not be exceptional, her storytelling earns her a place among my auto-buy authors.

Sexual content is present in "Kanae NT," confirming its yaoi classification, though it takes some time to appear. Don’t be surprised by the frequent heterosexual encounters, as Hikaru strives to assert his straightness. These scenes include moments with women, sometimes involving his underlings. When it comes to the main couple’s intimacy, it’s far from lighthearted or enjoyable, reflecting more of an obsession or desperate need. Roles aren’t confined to traditional uke and seme dynamics, offering surprises that challenge expectations. In fact, this manga features one of the least girly ukes I’ve encountered.

The story blends darkness and pain with adventure, romance, slice-of-life elements, and even fleeting comedic moments (like Hikaru shopping at the supermarket or visiting Sano in the hospital). The plot is captivating and unpredictable, keeping you guessing about what happens next.

The ending leaves room for interpretation, with certain aspects not fully explained. Although not conventionally happy or light-hearted, it leans more positive than anticipated.

This review was crafted as part of the "Anti Girly Uke Yaoi Club" special read event. Check out the original review there and join the ongoing manga discussion.  

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To anyone considering reading this, know that the actual character development occurs at chapters near 325

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