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It's a good novel. I just didn't feel comfortable at first. Maybe it was a necessary start, but...MC a little seems to be depressed and has low self-esteem, so I honestly felt bad seeing her stoop and fluctuate with her mood swings because of her relationship.Yes, MC got it wrong and did a lot of things that justify FL being hesitant to approach her again, but I think the way she treats her at first... well... huh. Yes, I know the character should have a "tsundere" personality, and I know she's all sweet for MC and always protected her in the dark, and she was mostly just evading MC's approach, but.... words have power, especially if everything you say has a lot of influence on someone else. "She hurt you, so make her run after you and feel what you felt back then. Don't let it be easy" (someone said something like that) It's terrible advice. There's nothing cute or romantic about wearing yourself out emotionally to chase someone. A transparent conversation and sincerity during the course would have avoided a lot of suffering. Spoiler
I was happy when FL ignored her cousin (?) and ended up coming home for her birthday and didn't leave MC in the dark with her surprise "party".
[collapse]They start to really talk about their feelings and the past, rather than continuing down the path of self-punishment, and things get better in my view. But I decided to leave reading along the way.I stopped reading because MC looks more like a puppy running after its owner. The slow pace of the novel isn't the problem. I just don't think it's an equals relationship. Even halfway through the novel it's MC who is always wrong and keeps apologizing. It seems like FL never makes mistakes or has a wrong opinion, everything she says to MC is right and she takes it as law. FL even admits that he also made mistakes that also influenced the failure of their previous relationship, but as far as I've read, that's all.Not everyone can rise in life by being 100% honorable. If you have a mountain to climb, no matter what the means, just climb it. Within limits, I don't hate people like that. I find MC interesting, and would have liked to see her run outside her FL orbit, even a little bit. Maybe come back to reading another day and finish it.