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I read this knowing it's noncon and ab*se story. I'm usually happy to write off past transgressions if the flow is believable, I do love me some grovelling. But this is...It was not some misunderstanding that ML is a scum. He actively wants to hurt MC, he treated him less than a dog, he seems to only exist to torture MC. He leaves MC alone in a house with a royal princess who was never subtle about wanting to kill MC, a princess who had killed/tortured his past concubines who barely survived his pathetic excuse for lovemaking. Emperor should be a matchmaker, the princess and ML are a perfect match.He'd shout why doesn't MC trust him!?!?! when he doesn't trust MC either and never properly listens to him. He's this genius tactician who can't analyse his toxic behaviour and can't tell when ppl are lying to him. It's even worse if he had planned everything about MC's time in his manor and him leaving to join emperor faction. He knows he's MC's entire world, and he still trampled over him. Then he had the nerve to say he can't live without MC, when he was MC's living nightmare.You see, when your image outside is sh!t and your behaviour in real life is also sh!t, people tend to think that's who you are, a sh!t. Oh the fun times when he hanged MC by the hand and whipped him and did it until his bleeding painted the floor in beautiful patterns. So. Fun. Because it's definitely his fault he dances so well everyone falls for his charm, we all know dancing in front of men is the signal to start an 0rgee.Everyone just stands around letting MC get tortured and humiliated. Not even his friend/bodyguard says anything, MC forgives them all. It's like there's this barrier preventing anyone from helping him when the ab*se events gets triggered. MC eventually gets so ruined he will only live 2 years tops (or 20 if his mood stabilised). He's really thin and suffering from poison recurrence (WHICH ML HAS THE ANTIDOTE TO ALL ALONG BTW) and with this tattered body, MC will later get pregnant, idk, this feels like a mess to me. No one is making sense.Clearly author believes just being in love excuses everything. Stab ppl, oh I did it out of love, it's because I was so jealous that I want to hurt you and feel I own you. Poison ppl, I didn't mean to, I love you so much, you understand me right? Why would I hurt you everyday if I don't love you? Terrorise you, I can't stay away from you, you're the only one for me, who cares about your reputation? Mine is also ruined, we'll be perfect match!MC's actions feels like he's only attached to ML cus of his Stockholm syndrome, he never knew healthy romantic love, he keeps craving ML's warmth, thinking he's in love even when it's mostly the seggs, hesitates to leave ML even when he's already tired with everything. I find it hard to believe they truly love each other. Maybe if his mom and dad resurrected. I for one would want nothing to do with a person who's been central to my family's demise.Stars just for author, for trying something even though I wasn't convinced and writing a lot of this mess, and translator's hard work.