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It's like reading two story. From the male lead pov, its a overbearing CEO and his canary.But MC point of view, it's so painful and heart wrenching. He is in so much pain, death would have been better. I even felt that MC should die so that he couldn't feel so much pain anymore.It's also astonishing that ML cannot really gauge his pain. His poverty, debt, sickness, mental pain.... ML knows, can imagine, just cannot feel it. When I was reading chapter 8, it didn't seem like much, mc's pain, that's how I know, ML cannot feel it or doesn't care.It's also true, without Ml, MC wouldn't end up much better. MC has a warped view of the world and himself. It's said people who get used to ab*se, expects ab*se. They cannot deal with gentleness. Every time ML tries to do better, MC forces him back to roughness.I secretly wish that someone gentle will find MC and treat him better. But people like MC unknowingly attracted towards violence. Which is why he fell in love with the ML. It's often mentioned that he and his mother could recognize those violent people. Still he's drawn towards ML. He'll appreciate kindness but will never fall in love with this.I especially love how author expressed the time in season instead of year.MC pov was so beautifully written, I want to give the author hundreds hugs.I know how difficult it is to write something violent or sad.Also, MC is many ways an unreliable narrator. This tag should be added.ML is heartless and doesn't care about MC s pain. Later he becomes gentle not because he understands mc's pain but he's afraid MC is going to die any moment.Some people might argue about moral or MC should end up with someone better.The truth is, they are twisted people, so their love is twisted too. (No matter how innocent the MC is, he's also has twisted psychology) It's better not to gauge their love with normal mentality.