My Husband Hates Me, But He Lost His Memories Chapter 20 Discussion

Changed my mind. I effing hate him. Rating dropped, and original review below.

FL and her maid, Charlotte, are my OTP.

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A misunderstanding fic, mixed with second chances. No rebirth or isekai, just straight amnesia. A solid 4 stars because while it packs an emotional wallop, it is not for everyone, and not for every mood.

At the current moment, I want to set all of the "good" people on fire, for being awful, hypocritical wretches who are worse than the "bad" people. Seriously, they are puppy-killing garbage people, so I do not understand why they get to play at being so much better than the Everetts. If a giant fissure opened up and the entire area got s**ked straight down to Hell, I would honestly feel like they deserved it, and good riddance.

Our main character and female lead is the much ab*sed adoptive daughter of the "bad" guys, i.e. the Everett family.

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What makes them bad is they refused to send extra assistance to the "good" Valentino guys to deal with a Hell fissure on Valentino property until the Valentino's agreed to the arranged marriage deal. Considering the Valentino's have little to nothing to offer, the fissure opened on their own lands, fissures open all over the country, (including Everett land) constantly, and especially in the Northern, Valentino territory...I don't really see this as super evil. Perhaps opportunistic, but whatever.

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She wasn't given a choice when she was married off to the "good" Valentino family heir, but by God, are they going to make her personally responsible for the sins of her father (which is why "good" is in "", the fake scumbags). No matter what she does, she's going to be seen as the evil spawn of the Everetts.

The thing I like best about our MC:

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While she had hoped to start anew and is legitimately a kind, soft marshmallow at heart, when it became apparent that wasn't going to happen, she decided she does not give AF about how they treat her and will do what she wants. She is going to void out, let it roll right off of her, and then go do what she thinks is right regardless. Their opinions of her be damned. She likewise gives excellent bit*h right back, playing up the villain when she needs to. While she generally does not care how bad you treat her, god won't be able to help you if you touch her best friend/ maid.

She is super model pretty, she is otherwise NOT over powered or Mary Sue.

Be warned she is not an agent of revenge, or kick ass. Her weapons of choice are to be completely unengaged, sprinkled with snarky comments designed to get people to go away and leave her alone. She can be pretty passive.

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She spends her marriage being wrongfully pillaried by her new husband and his "good" family, household, and estate, after quietly smothering her hopes and dreams of a fresh start to death and deciding to endure on her own terms.

Anyways, our female lead is too gorgeous for her own good. Our "good" guy male lead, who agreed to marry her for assistance with his lands, is instantly and wildly attracted, much to his own disgust. He sends out mixed signals, treating her like catnip one moment, then wanting nothing to do with her the next.

For those readers who have such concerns/ preferences on ab*se levels:

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the ML does not goes over the line into beating ab*se-ab*se, but he can be a grabby, pushy, invasive, bi-polar jerk a lot of the time. He tends towards neglect and emotional ab*se, with cutting remarks. He is also handsy and invasive. He mainly acts like a highschool level, confused, jock, as*hole who has found himself with a crush on the goth girl he knows he's not supposed to like but can't help it, and his garbage popular friends prevent him from getting over it and just asking her out and instead expect him to haze her. If the world and his past left him completely alone, he'd be free to love her. But the world keeps egging him on to be mean to her, and he is human, he is confused and upset by his unwanted, not-understood feelings, and he takes the blame out on her. I honestly hate him.

His lovely household, however, likes to shun and isolate her, put dead animals in her things, and blame her for stuff like killing his dog.

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Once he gets amnesia, suddenly he forgets all the qualms and political drama which kept him from acting on his attraction to his beautiful wife. And, now that his head is out of his ass and his grief blinders off, he also notices that she is genuinely wary and afraid of him. A bit of a soul searching rummage into how's he's treated her, and viewing her actions without prejudice skewing them, and we have a recipe for a reformed lovesick sap trying his best to get his reluctant wife to love him. Which I am very on board with.

To be fair, they both came by their misunderstandings honestly.

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She was adopted due to her looks with the sole purpose of raising her for an advantageous political marriage. Both of her step brothers are half in love with her, half sexually attracted to her in an unhealthy way, and her adoptive dad is a not-good person. She has never experienced healthy attachments or relationships, and views all interactions with suspicion and the expectation that the other person wants something they aren't saying. By necessity, she has had to hide her goodness to fit in and survive in the Everett family.

She

is generally correct that those around her have bad intentions. His household is filled with garbage people after all. But it does mean she is wary from the start does not give them a second chance after their initial attitude towards her became apparent. Though, they don't really deserve the effort of a second chance with how they've generally treated her, especially when she tried to be vulnerable for once and explain and they shot her down. (We should just burn them all.)

On the ML's part, his new wife

does put on a show of being villainous when that is expected of her, and he does not know her well enough to have learned better. He has considerable trauma and the loss of his entire immediate family, caused in part by her family. He views his wife through the lens of this loss with an eye towards blaming someone, and she is the easiest target. He also tends to confuse his attraction to her as be caused by her on purpose, rather than originating in himself. His tendency to displace his own issues onto MC, and view her in the worst possible light at all times, even when she's trying, makes me hate him.

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The pair are no where near as messed up as "What it means to be you, " which is a relief, but they're pretty messed up.

Read if you are feeling wronged and want to soak in it until pruny, because our MC is very, very wronged. Then enjoy as they try to make it up to her and get her forgiveness. Her husband better crawl through glass to beg for her forgiveness, or I am plummeting the rating from 4 stars to 1.

• ETA: Rating reduced. His attitude so far has remained that of a controlling boor who is undeservedly forgiving of the past wrongdoings he can't remember, (but is certain aren't that bad), since it's easiest and gets him what he wants the fastest: s*x and lovey-dovey-ness with his hot wife. And he's getting annoyed she isn't falling in line. He is not remorseful, doesn't try to earn forgiveness or trust, and instead bulldozes all of her boundaries because he finds them inconvenient. I really, really hate him.

I'm giving this three more chapters for him to become remorseful, or I'm dropping it.

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