- #1
Being from a family with strong Esper tradition, when he turned out to be a Guide, they basically considered him tr*sh. His older brother treated him as his plaything and got off on mentally manipulating him (literally, with mind powers) and both verbally and physically abusing him into forced guiding. His father considers guides something below him and would cover up everything for the brother while MC keeps working hard hoping for some recognition from his family he never gets.
We learn that MC in his first life has later on actually been going to a therapist/counselling/trainer to be able to get better. It even makes sense he was previously obsessed with ML since he was like the bright sun in his shitty life. So it's honestly understandable he couldn't be some happy go lucky saintly selfless person (which his how he views the supposed love interest of ML from previous life, really puts her on pedestal and constantly compares them to call himself unworthy). He trusted wrong people and did various things because he thought he would never have any chance with ML otherwise, ironically that pulling them further apart.
[collapse]I also seem to have reached the spicier chapters, it's a bit earlier than 120 but maybe 120 will be when ML succeeds at...Spoileractual sex? As so far MC is avoiding it - I was astounded that while he has slept with many in his previous life and seemed planning to do so after rebirth to get backers, everything he did was in fact non-penetrative. With how toxic and power-focused the guideverse is it surprised me he was actually able to find partners willing to respect that.
[collapse]Overall I'd say this is fairly well written and the psychology behind way they act is quite compelling and makes sense. However if you are sensitive, you should probably avoid this as there is a lot of potentially triggering topics.
