The Villain that Reincarnated into the World of a BL Game goes Astray Chapter -- Discussion

It's already my second attempt to read this, but it's still impossible for me to hold on till the end. *Sign*

Though Japanese villain MCs plot is not new, not many of them are BLs, so I couldn't stop seeking and rereading those. It's the same with this story. But somehow, the reading was not pleasant for me. What makes this different is the MC, and the ML, too

Spoiler

MC is a complete pushover. He was a 21 years old man, but the way he acted and thought are anything but mature. He was scared of the game's plot and wanted to change it, but the things he did doesn't make sense.

MC declared that he would never lay down without a fight, but instead of doing so, he easily backed down in front of the ML (crown prince).

First, he played duels with CP, and making a condition that if the CP loses, he would then call him Al. ("Hello?! Are you still remember that you done with him?")

After they became friends (?), MC complained that CP (ML) is tyrannical, forceful, etc., But it's clearly him who spoiled the CP and allowed CP to do all the deeds. ("Haiz, you still do know what is right or wrong, right?" Right?)

But no. God blesses me. MC, what did you even think?! Fallen in love with a 12 years old boy, who was still a spoiled brat? Where's your spirit before? Your own life was ruined, but you didn't even feel any hatred towards the CP, who, though indeliberately, is the culprit? Who are you? A saint? Angel? God? Instead, you just worried that he will hate you?

I hate it most that the author forcefully makes the MC and ML fall in love with each other, no matter how s*upid the situation is. The beginning of the MC's relationship leave a terrible taste in my mouth that even the later fluff moments could not erase one bit. [collapse]