Tae Seong-jae… he’ll take me home.

One day, ‘I’ transmigrated into the character Seo Seung-won in a BL novel given to me by my little sister without warning. As a result of transmigration, I frequently experience nosebleeds and hemoptysis, as well as other forms of pain. Since I realized that the calmer I was, the less pain I felt, so I desperately tried to empty my thoughts and maintain my composure, but I couldn’t stand it when the original memory of “me” faded away day by day. However, in order to escape from this terrible place and return to reality, ‘I’ aim at the end of the novel and do not lose hope. Following the plot of the novel, I become the lover of ‘Tae Seong-je’, get abandoned, and attempt s**c*de. For the sake of getting back home.

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  1. Gonayaro33791
    Gonayaro33791 rated it
    This isn't your typical feel-good romance novel; it leans more towards a melancholic exploration. It's important to note that not everyone may enjoy this style, but critiquing based on personal preference isn't a fair assessment of its quality. As I read, I felt compelled to share my thoughts.

    The title indeed captures the essence, painting a picture of a "depressing illusion." I appreciate the author's handling of the age difference – the main character's youth (20) contrasting with the male lead's (28) – as it addresses a common issue, though some may argue 20 isn't necessarily a kid. The portrayal of sexuality isn't overly romanticized or sexualized, which is a refreshing change from other works.

    Many themes resonate, such as the harsh realities of transmigration on mental health and the "yandere" trope in the original character. While I expect a satisfying conclusion with the intended couple, the novel's overall tone serves as a poignant reminder of the unhealthiness of these dynamics in real life. That's where the author's maturity and message truly shine.

    This book doesn't bring happiness, but its honest portrayal of these issues makes me appreciate the depth and intention behind it.
  1. lifesketchervQk
    lifesketchervQk rated it
    I'm giving this a full 5-star rating! I have a soft spot for stories with a weak protagonist, and this novel truly embraced that theme. The absence of a tragedy tag was actually a pleasant surprise, rather than a letdown – it felt like hitting the jackpot. However, there were moments of confusion, like when the male lead (ML) rapes the main character (MC), and the MC ends up blaming himself. While empathy can be exploited, there should be more explanation for the ML's actions, especially since it's a serious issue. The lack of consistency in the MC's PTSD triggers is confusing, considering both the parents and the ML mistreated him.

    Despite these points, I genuinely enjoyed the story. I found reviews that seemed unfair, which prompted me to share my thoughts. The story might be slow at times, but that's part of its charm – it offers realism amidst the fictional narrative. If the story were too over-the-top, it might lose its depth. The novel shines in its portrayal of human complexity, even if it means exploring difficult emotions.

    Regarding the MC's health issues, I'm unsure about the specific illnesses causing vomiting, memory loss, and dementia, but it seems like a combination. His short-term memory loss, alcohol consumption, and occasional smoking are mentioned.

    Both MC and ML could benefit from therapy. I also hope for the antagonist, Ji-min's stalker, to be dealt with. The MC's genuine concern for Ji-min's well-being is admirable, whereas the antagonist's behavior is despicable, though it's challenging to find words to describe just how terrible he is.

    As for the siblings and their girlfriend, I don't have a favorable impression of them. Their portrayal of the MC in a demeaning way is off-putting. Imagine if someone wrote a story about your loved one in such a way – it'd be infuriating.

    Overall, I empathize with MC and Ji-min's struggles, though the ML's actions raise questions. The story isn't toxic in my view, and I appreciate the author and translator for their work. I hope the ending is not rushed and that we get a satisfying conclusion. Thank you!
  1. Patherornt
    Patherornt rated it
    The story stands out due to its unique take on transmigration, exploring the psychological impact on the main character (MC). Unlike many other narratives where the MC assimilates swiftly, this one delves into the MC's struggle with guilt and the challenge of adapting to a new life in a borrowed body. The MC's decision to distance themselves from others and cling to the belief that following the novel's plot will lead them back home is a more realistic portrayal of the emotional turmoil.

    The story revolves around a 19-year-old high school student who finds themselves in a romantic novel, where they fall in love with the male lead (ML), a gangster. Their relationship develops rapidly, but other intriguing supporting characters and plotlines seem to lose focus, leaving readers wondering if the author abandoned these elements.

    It's frustrating that significant revelations don't come until late in the story, around chapter 168, and even then, some events lack explanation. For instance, the kidnapping of the MC remains unresolved, leaving readers questioning the motives behind it and the knowledge held by their friend and sibling.

    Initially, the MC is likable, but as the narrative shifts heavily towards their fragile health and the intense, unhealthy relationship with the ML, the story becomes overwhelming after more than 200 chapters. The excessive focus on these aspects eventually becomes too much for the reader to bear.
  1. Nirtak_Kempfer
    Nirtak_Kempfer rated it
    The initial concept of the novel, "pushing the boundaries of storytelling to its limits," intrigued me, but the title "Depressing Illusion" aptly captures my experience. As I delved deeper, the narrative became increasingly monotonous and unengaging. The first third focused excessively on themes like consumption, food, and sustenance, providing little substance beyond surface-level descriptions. The remaining sections were divided between excessive mentions of nosebleeds, the主角's ill health, and a sluggish plot that moved at a snail's pace.

    In the end, I decided it was time to let go. Curiosity led me to finish it, hoping for some resolution, but alas, there was no satisfying conclusion. I wouldn't recommend this book to others.
  1. KiritoK5
    KiritoK5 rated it
    It seems like the user is expressing frustration about not being able to change a setting related to the LGBT category and is questioning why there's no option to correct an accidental press. A possible rewrite in English could be: "Why can't they allow us to adjust the settings after mistakenly selecting it? It's frustrating."
  1. Aliiireza
    Aliiireza rated it
    At this juncture, kindly escort MC to the psychiatrist. The boy desperately requires assistance 😢 I'm discontinuing my read as I find it too difficult to endure. The narrative is written from MC's perspective, which is highly challenging since he embodies a mentally ill character. Despite that, the story itself is intriguing. The main lead, ML, can be seen as a gray area character – morally ambiguous, not entirely good or bad. After all, he's a gangster, so don't expect him to possess the sweetness typical of many conventional romantic leads.
  1. UelUelByR
    UelUelByR rated it
    This novel really tugged at my heartstrings; I cried quite a bit while reading the Google Translate version. I'm thrilled to see it being translated officially. Thanks to the translators; I'll definitely continue following along. **UPDATE**: After reading it again, I'll provide a more polished review.

    The summary accurately captures the essence. The main character (MC) aims to finish the novel to return to reality, grappling with both the challenges posed by his novelized existence (incompatibility with his new body) and the issues in his real life.

    If you're looking for an emotional rollercoaster, this story delivers. The storyline is straightforward, and the protagonist is relatable without being a typical overbearing male lead (non-AHML).

    I highly recommend giving this a read; I promise you won't regret it, just remember to have tissues handy. 😭
  1. FrostBite8
    FrostBite8 rated it
    I absolutely adore this novel; it offers a delightful break from the usual BL genre. Although the beginning might be somewhat sluggish, the reading experience is rewarding, particularly with the tender moments shared between the main character (MC) and the male lead (ML). The inclusion of a mysterious aspect surrounding the MC's past life adds an intriguing twist, keeping the story captivating.

    What I appreciate most is the author's fresh and distinctive approach to the isekai theme. The way the MC remains determined to return home, while grappling with his developing feelings for the ML, is a genuinely touching element. Unlike many isekai stories where characters tend to forget their past lives, this novel incorporates the MC's memories thoughtfully, which elevates the narrative depth. Overall, it's a well-crafted and engaging read.

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