I Want to be Alone, Beautifully Chapter -- Discussion

tr*sh. This is the conclusion I've come to after reading only a few chapters. That doesn't mean the story as a whole is tr*sh. I've not read enough chapters to make that judgement. But it sure does start out as tr*sh.

We have here a yandere who has abducted the object of her obsession: her cold and ascetic senior sister. In order to be regarded by her senior sister as something more than some pitiful thing that needs to be rescued time and time again, the yandere has decided to abduct her savior and forcefully leave an impression on her heart. I could complain about the logic or the morality here, but this is a yandere character and that would be missing the point. The real problem here is that both the characters and the ab*se one inflicts upon the other are uninteresting.

We've seen these characters before. The first, a writer with bad taste who transmigrates into her own story to change the fate of a character. The second, A woman who fails to gain the affection of her savior and decides to abduct her instead. Neither of them are particularly interesting outside of the fact that the former has been abducted and is being mentally and sexually ab*sed by the latter. To put it another way, they just feel like vehicles to play out the fantasy.

But the fantasy is also lacking. It seems that the author wants to rely on titillation to carry the story but also doesn't want to write smut outright. So in the story we see the beginnings of something s*xual occurring and then we fade to black and skip ahead. In many cases, this would be fine. We don't need detailed s*x scenes if the interesting part of the story are not the s*x scenes but the consequences of the s*x scenes. But even the aftermath is boring. The idea is that the yandere is slowly whittling away the resistance of her captive. But it never really feels like that. The victim's thoughts are elsewhere. She wants to complete her mission and go home. She was abducted, had her cultivation destroyed, and is being s*xual ab*sed. Even so, she gives no f*cks. Even after her torture, her thoughts and concerns do not change. Even when her captor successfully provokes a response from her, it is always a misunderstanding or, even worse, an out of character response for the sake of the fantasy. As a result, the story comes off as a step removed from smut, only without the s*x scenes that make smut worth reading.

But it isn't all terrible. The prose, at least in xi4olongbao's translation, is better quality than you will find in most stories on this site. But that just means it is tr*sh written by someone that knows how to put a bit of artistry in their words. I think this story will probably become better over time. But I haven't enjoyed my time reading it so far.