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the Main Couple didn't have a really close brotherly relationship, mostly because they rejected each other, one felt constantly abandoned, surrounded by whispers of rejection and the other was too proud to give all his attention to someone who keeps pushing him away, so they gradually drifted apart, keeping only a conflicting husk.
But their minds weren't too different: one was obsessed with the other, hating his own inability to stop searching for the presence of them and trying to distract his loneliness with frivolousness, not unaware of it though; the other seemingly indifferent and with little truly on his mind, alienating his feeling but in the most hidden corner he couldn't get rid of the person, and from time to time acting out of his way to keep in touch.
[collapse]I read so many BLs but few of them remain with me and from time to time I feel the need to reminiscence. I feel that this too will be one of those few stories that will grow on me.Everyone has a different cup of tea, I'm in for mature relationship with realistic male leads, realistic past and background, growing characters and no tragedy. If they're both manly it's even better. This one fills every need.I love their personalities and their flaws, the way they are not even aware of them at times when they don't understand their own decisions. The complexity, the depth, the uncertianty, the hesitation, the stubborness and surrender.Not to talk about the hot scenes: they are not overly detailed in regard to body parts or actions but the atmosphere is everything, it's much more stimulating than a mere list of the events, they give us feelings, gasps, and shifting images, at times they linger more, at times we only have the outlines hidden behind a veil, letting imagination fill the gaps.Previously, in most other works, almost all, I always found these intimate scenes unsatisfying, the lack of lingering feelings in every touch, not describing the kisses, the interlocking of fingers, the caressing, the sweet words and careless laughter and just going for the "main plate" left just a bad taste after the commitment to read the whole jurney of falling in love.I'm super satisfied with this story.Might not be to everyones liking, but I must say that the more it goes on the sweeter it tastes, don't get fooled by the initial carelessness, this story ages like wine, a really fine one.